ur love is the music of my heart

:: fell in love with a boy

2005-01-22T22:21:00.000+08:00

tick tick tick. time goes by, happy. so, thanks.

Tired bored.
This weblog is no longer in use.

:: roller coaster ride

2005-01-17T13:06:00.000+08:00

totally new, totally freaked out, the climax is done

heys, missed you blogspot.com!
its been ages since, my comp broke down.
=( yeah yeah.
im at thelibrary, coz i wanna email the tp thingy.
so see u ard, maybe after hari raye haji.

off to work.

:: 2005, spanking new year

2004-12-29T13:10:00.000+08:00

not a pretty chick with all the right features, im happy though.

2005.
yay a new year.

Since I am pretty jaded until well, at least the end of Febuary or early March, I made a note of events I should not, never, by no means, miss come next year.

so here's the list.

1. my O Level results (peperiksaan yg akan menentukan mase depanku)
2. Sayanora Compassvale Secondary. also 88 or 156+LRT
3. Adios to 2nd floor of block 298A. =)
4. Turning 17 la uuuu!

All that and more. =)

2004 is was great. a vice-charman (a big deal for someone irresponsible like me), having the greatest classmates of sec 4f, taking the most most most prestigious O level, and a girlfriend.=) heehee.

looking forward for new year.

though i wont be starting it properly. 2thousand5 will officially start after ive gotten my results. =)

More frequent than always, ive been thinking about my results. days passed so quickly, and soon.. *sigh* i just can imagine how the atmosphere would be. how Ms Boo would approach me.

"Congrats Martina..."

or

"Too bad Martina.I told u..."

*screams like hell*

i dont feel like taking my results. everytime i think about the atrocious answers i written down for math, the last minute drawings for art, the unbalanced accounts for POA, the what-talking-about-hitler? for Humanities.. hope seem to be... died down. all i want to do is cry, regret.

I always asked mum to pray for me. her blessing do work.
mum said i shud pray foor myself. and i did, always. so... INSYALLAH.

hie, today's our one month. =)

:: best friends

2004-12-28T01:44:00.000+08:00

im still yay-ing, in 5.1 surround.

FUN DAE!
Girls Day OUt. im so happy to be a girl.=)
went to sch first, ewah ewah, sudah maju skola kentalku.

we were quite late.
hahah. she asked us to go first. then we go cp to take 87, meet lydia.

and of course, we were starving...

they played pool after that. see the pronoun again, THEY.
Im not really interested. hee, pool to me is like.. golf. =)

after that we went cycling. fun seh. it was raining rather heavily, and we got soaked. it was fun. syaf blanje ice cream lagik. =)

ok la, i want to pray.
ive commited to many sins.
('.')

:: migraine

2004-12-26T15:49:00.000+08:00

i've just begun having my fun, don't wanna settle down

kak ani's wedding was fun. and very tiring. atika mention kite kene step jambu skit, coz saiful confirm confirm bring his pals. they go gaga over "the washer".. *makes face* so ugly. =|

and yes, kite set rambot uuu! ade bunge lagik. kental memang kental tetapi semangat mesti ade! hehehe, funnnn...way lots of fun.

yay yay 2mrw we want to go out. girls dae out. but firstly, we're going back to school. syaf and i want to take our cheques, natty need to pay school fees.

there's a new prinicipal next year, and i heard the new rules are incredibly totally obviously stupid. i used to literally sit down and think why i hate this school so much, so when this stupid plus unnecessary rules are implemented, then i realise, yes thats that. won't bother. i'm happy enuough to already graduate. alhamdulilah. =)

heehee, sister already gotten her pay. *evil laugh*
Mango sale uuu!

:: trappedd

2004-12-22T01:44:00.000+08:00

nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard...

just feel like updating.
Im suffering froma terrible terrible terrible stomachache.

ouch!

after years downloading Gilmore Girls religiously, im starting to dl Oc too. whats that for a change...summer is so gorgeouss.flawless. and seth is like sooo mine.

not that they dont want me, or high-maintanence me just being fussy,
suddenly i just dont feel like working anymore.

:: renges renges di pilis

2004-12-21T01:31:00.000+08:00

when u just feel like liberating...

hees. went to cousin's wedding. actually i help out. and trust me, i dont really enjoy that much.well, tak de member la gang!

after being berkat girl for 4 hours starte, i feel so feverish.
39.00 uuu!

the n level results released previous fridae.
i am soo fuckin scared. sumpah!ni bukan main2 nye feeling!
ok forget a while, pray lots. hee.

O.C's last episode very touching. goosebumps seh.

next week, my dearest kak ani tersyang is getting hitched as well. this is goona be fun!
hope to get well soon. =)

:: boredom, sucks big time

2004-12-16T01:18:00.000+08:00

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

Im bored. Darn bored. very the bored...........

i feel like going to camp.
heehee, somewhat like an excursion.
cycling, badminton.
im just in a desperate need of an activity bastard!

everyone is busy with their own stuff, and me, just rot at home.
and ive enuff experiencing life like malem and daling.
how peaceful.

*smiles*
and yes, not only the cat, the owner is adorable as well. =p

i feel like shopping.
forever 21 tops looks darn good on their site. =)

:: i must search

2004-12-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

if only u knew how happy u made me today,u'd probably be the only one happier than me.

went out with the girls, AGAIN.
watched shutter.
it WAS scary, but i have my big fat fingers covering my sight the whole time, so. it was ok.
But the part she was chasing the guy down the ladder, i was screaming like shit.
hais, and also the part at the sink.

bluek.

den usually, we "hang" @ tong seng. their mee is getter nicer and nicer. yum!

however, surprisingly it wasnt "that" fun. heehee.

laters.

:: job necessities!

2004-12-10T01:39:00.000+08:00

You never see it coming cause you're blinded from the start

after, u noe, terperap at umah mcm babi for 3 strate daes, natty and i followed liddy for her model interview. which is cool. hee, nvr been to that time of place before, so a bit jakon lor...

its fun. but tiring, my toes are suffering blisters. poor baby.

den we walk ard istana park. hee, snap here, there.

kenis maknes!

after "lighting", we procced to bugis for lunch cum dinner at the very famous Tong Seng. heehee. we den take some neoprint den we have sort of supper ice cream at swensens. yum!

we den meet syafi, since thursdaes is her only dae off, so we decided to lepas kan rindu.
we go ard spore post, den home.

but now, i feeling so down.
dunno why.
frustrated, irritated and all other words that ends with -ted or has the same meaning as annoyed.
p.m.s maybe.

bah.

and yes, about the job thingy, i got some some some some chance at swensens or starbucks.
we'll see. =)

chedebah, martina nak keje la! jgn main2!

:: hippos camels

2004-12-07T21:31:00.000+08:00

You make me thank god that I live my life everyday

Zoo was fun! We double date with saswan and salha. Its was nice, really nice. After zoo, we went bowling. my bowling skills are defintely improving! ;p

after bowling...

and yes, the job issue..im at the edge of giving up.
Frankly, i applied for tons tons tons..u name it. Mango, x:odus, u2, starbucks, dorothy perkins... but nobody called.

argh, give up. but u dont expect me to stay at home right?

maybe macdonalds will do the kick? heh.

:: strate, no senget senget

2004-12-05T14:08:00.000+08:00

the search for strength to carry on, draining away..

ok i'll make it clear, no more reading of archives.
very embarassing leh!

yesh yesh yesh.
Mr Taufik Batisah won singapore idol.
hee, yes a bit late ar, but who cares.
voted 3 times, a big fan now.
he looks like Elmo, a cute one. hahah.
cheers for taufik!
ole ole ole!

and yeah, hari raye outing was funny.
the girls were all heart to heart against saswan and adzhar.
i don noe what to sae, but its funny.

cool yeah? fun ~
update laters, and yes, im going zoo 2mrw!
woohoo!! =) so psyched!
foxes and hippo, here i come!

:: offcially

2004-12-01T13:31:00.001+08:00

its because, you make me happy.

29 November 2004. a beautiful so serene Mondae nite.
hee, it happened.
he asked.

its official. gawd. =)

:: etrangled

2004-11-26T02:09:00.000+08:00

for you, i'll take the last flight out

hie. 2 days i never use comp. MAgical. Great daes. except no camera. wah laozzz..

irritating sia. im a real need of a camera. missed it so much. its under service. my beautiful black Canon digital ixus-i. miss you baby. =p

Went to my class bbq. very fun. i reached they strate away challenged bk with the swing. hehes. not to mention i was stuck in the bus to reach there with those 4 irritating bengs. we were 2++ hrs late!

went to watch bridget jones todae. farouk was groaning the whole time. what la he. not his type of movie. quite nice the movie i must say. we went out in a bunch. me natty lyd syafi adzhar shahrir rizman and farouk. natty was pretty mad with them, esp after the raye conflict. it wasnt that pleasant. hahs, we spilt after that. they went bugis, we go shop.

I lurve FOREVER 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can go crazy sia, but of course, since the girls were such in pms-y moods, i kept calm. hee =)
i bought 2 tops and earrings. wanna go there again.
i mean its equally nice, as Topshop, and even cheaper. *thumbs up*

we had sort-of supper at delifrance. we pit stop at Sasa.
mcm org jakon belik nail polish!

maybe going Sentosa next mondae.
he just tell me he want to meet me awhile 2mrw,
"i wana meet u awhile, i dunno bout you, but its kinda impt for me"
like shit, i was so worried, nervous. all wild thoughts flood my brain.
imaginations run wild.
then he say mondae, so mondae worz.

im babbling shit.
bubye.

:: scared? no more.

2004-11-23T11:42:00.000+08:00

ever wondered how men and women can technically speak the same language yet have so many misunderstandings?

O'S DEAD.

I shot it yesterdae. Promptly at 9am.
weeee ! ~ =) i can smeel the happy breeze.

the gerls still got bio, so i didnt celebrate much.

can pass or not, i shall not think about it.
instead, gonna reward myself for being pretty hardworking these past recent months.
I gonna spend my dae in a saloon. do nothing but read mags while a person come and pamper my hair.

hee, sister said, since its an extremely loooong holidae, thou shalt try something new.

i was thinking of shag.
ala ashlee simpson.
we'll shall think about it.

bad news..WE ARENT GOING ZOO. =(
im devastated, all hopes crashed into pieces..for once i feel like a broken vase that would not stand. let me isolate this sorrow to athe abyss of melancholy. ok shadub.

they want to go pulau ubin cycle. or sentosa.

2mrw's the big dae. goodness im nervous.
why am i nervous?
coz im crazy. hee =)

and yeah,
there's a big big chance im probably going to idol finals. =p

:: bored

2004-11-20T15:48:00.000+08:00

i'll be the one blowing kisses from the top

1 more paper!!!!!!!!
mak oi, 10 tahun aku berjuang untuk pendidikan singapura dah habis!
combined science MCQ. 20 Physics, 20 Chemistry. 1 hr.
Syaf say just bring dice. Throw.
1=a
2=b
3=c
4=d
5&6=throw again.

hee. funny la.

yesterdae i went out with bk willie hengy farouk bambang carine jiahao.
they looking for a job, so determined. im impressed. hah.

i luurrrrrvvvvveeeee Taufik. hahah, he's like so talented. yes, pinch me why i didnt realise that earlier.

OUCH! sakitnye.

hee. ok ok LAME. but really, i like the aint no sunshine performance. but Lets stay together nicest la hor. ehh mesmerizing betol yuu!! terpegun i!!! but kalau haizad, agaknye dah pengsan tersenyum!

kk, im mostly in holidae mood. hahah carine oso. got lots of things to do, to buy.
Just morning i went breakfast with sis den we go study at Coffee Bean. For about an hour later, she say she cant study with me ard ( i dont understand why people keep saying that same thing to me ) lol. anyways, full bloated automatically bring euphoria to the atmosphere, i skipped my way home. soo happily. wee =)

i want to see the forgotten. they all say no good. they lousy la.
hey got class bbq!! yay! i'll be arriving late, maybe, got some pit stop and detour earlier.
**winks. yeah,going out with him a while.shh.. dont tell people ar. *puts finger on lips*
we're going zoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the much-awaited destination.
Fox, im coming to prove that you hop!!!!

eh i feel like rebonding my hair.
dunno scared not nice.

and also, we're goin hari raye on the 30th. hee, excited nye. and yeah, maybe aishah's coming along. syaf and wan in bad terms. takmo gadoh la, pasal date pon korang nak fight fight.
kan hari raye. this year all must follow eh. melayu islam sec 4 express. i want full attendance =) *squinting at the attendance list*

:: need you, oh so badly

2004-11-17T17:59:00.000+08:00

dont let me be the last to know

Slamat Hari Raye!
Raye was a blast, except the part when my camera go crazy!

but hey, miracles of all miracles, it sometimes work.
(angin skit la..)

my sises and i

loving devling cousins
"ska" atika , "sweet" martina and "supermodel" huda

and now, 3 daes raye, im oredi sick!
To the max.
38.9 u noe..
2mrw accounts paper.
how to take, im so not prepared.

:: it deepens, i can feel it

2004-11-13T22:20:00.001+08:00

set me free. away from this misery

yey besok raye!
but i dont feel much of the atmosphere.
First and foremost, i still havent finish my first hand observation.
My History, haven still milestone away...

Just morning got art.
went for a while then went to develop pix.
What pissed me off was my cd -- "No Images Found"
holy cow. Argh, maybe PMS la.
Then after that, went to meet him.
help him do art. persuade him to consult ms ng, he insist he don wan.. what can i do? only help him lor.. he's so lucky. hahah.

SAMAT HARI YAYE!

:: selamat hari raye!

2004-11-11T13:53:00.000+08:00

living in a shadow, of someone else's dreams.

changed layout. the previous is a bit..blah.

im so tired and sleepy.
i slept at 4 yesterday doing my art, and only end up with 2 firsthand observation.
haiyah haaiyah.

Raye coming. yey yey yey..
The whole family spent the entire dae cleaning up the house. so dusty.
i fasting somemore..(nat's quote- puase kene ikhlas..hahah)

after doing my part, im gonna rest. then breakfast. clean up my entire room.
That include changing my posters, change bedsheet, vacuum, closet revamp..etc..
if im not tired do a bit of history.

yesterdae was fun. went out with Nat and Syaf. before meeting them, saw him. heh, talk a tiny while, then meet up with them. haha, they wanted to study, but i brought nothing. Well hello, i didnt get the plan right. heh, main ikot je aku.. end up, we watched Shark Tale. Lenny is sooo adorable. Tommy said Don Leno look like amir! which undeniably true. hahah!

Tomorrw got art! 8.30 liao...
And yeah, my class having bbq at florida condominium. Vic's place.
She said no time to book chalet, so a bbq is quite ok.
Well, i thot so too.its on the 24th, gee cant wait.

24th happens to be the day that the guys ar fighting for to jn raye. Syaf have to thru a hassle, by persuading khairi to not go camp so that they can jln raye on the 24th..until they got to the worst fight. But then syazwan cant..syaf went ballistic, since she thot syazwan was the one who planned to go on the 24th. as you know, syazwan is the captain. if he didnt go, his bunch of soldiers wont tag along.So now its officially on the 30th. But syaf's still mad.

Terjadi la satu pertengkaran senyap aka cold war antara kite.
takmo gadoh la korang eh?

kan nak raye!

:: the necessary

2004-11-09T18:12:00.000+08:00

you don't know what it's like,when nothing feels alright.

i am ready at this point of time, this moment of my 16 years of living, to declare that
life is pretty ugly.

hah, havent been really in the mood.
coz math paper 2 caught me off guard.
i sms mr thong a apology and sorry-to-disspoint-you msg.
and he thot i was kidding, yeah way to go.

wadever that means. im not taking my results. ever.

i dont have any other paper this week. hurray.

ms ng sent us letters for not coming for her art consultation. which means i have to go. 2MRW. im so freaking tired. enough for the fact i don have a black watercolour pencil. hee.

yey yey nak raye!
"berseri...murni...di pagi aidilfitri..."
i lurvva that song.
hee, we are going green.
nak collect duit!`
cause im pretty much broke. heh.

after O, bk planning a trip to the zoo. yeah baby yeah.
its time for me to witness the beautiful, and not to mention smelly, world of animals. where foxes 'hops', hippo 'swims'.

lol!

private joke la guys.

:: spice and everything nice

2004-11-01T22:27:00.000+08:00

the phone rings, i hear you, in the darkness was a clear view

THE TIME HAS ARRIVED.
Lets show the ang-mohs how menacing we are.

Bring on DAWG.

Mly Paper 2 suck.

2mrw, double sucky SS. *bleargg*
(pakkal puase) =)

:: i hate this feeling in my gut

2004-10-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

accidentally in love?

Im sick of this feeling.
Guilt, remorse mixed into one.

My life is messed up.
Disorganized. I have to do something.

I didnt totally neglect them, or did i?
Now i noe how syaf felt last year, and yikes, i felt like a complete darn bitch!
I love ma babes. Sorry if i was a darn right asshole. I love you peeps.

Ok, but still, i have to forget him for a while.
O's coming!

Do you think he'll care about me if i failed my Os, with nowhere to go?

:: holy cow

2004-10-19T23:15:00.000+08:00

Dont you dissapoint me.

I've graduated!

I've graduated!

I've graduated!

I've graduated!

I've graduated!

I've graduated!

heez...ALMOST. Still got this Os. Nvr blog for quite some time. Just been busy. Lazy is also one of the contributing factors. hehz. Mcm SS pulak ye?

I LOVE GRADUATION NIGHT. I LOVE IT LOTS. BUT UNfortunately, i didnt really take much photos. That thought really irritate me. I was too busy with the all excitement. hehz. Still, i lurve it to bits. Especially partee time at nite, hahz. We went home about 11! He send me home, hehz, kinda sweet huh. I might sae, we're moving a bit to fast tho.

hengy and i , with 4F's hunks. *pukes

world's bestest chairmen

hee.. =)

Dinner sucks. not to mention we have to eat super fast, coz the partee time oredi started!!

and all my hard work and effort are rewarded with..

a box of ferrero rocher!! Oh i just love 4F! Muackz.

Hee, most of them are still in partee mood.
To replace our regrets and remorse for not taking a shot together, we brought camera the next2 dae! hee...

shows our sense of Malay Express 2004 is deeply embedded in our hearts!

Can it be replayed? Heez.
i love it. Gonna miss all this funks for sure.

**and yeah, where did all my tags go?

:: whatever the shit, just bear with it

2004-10-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

There's only you and me, no one else

Oh, my blog is like so dead. And i dont even bother. Hahah.

Been busy.
School thi s week's total hectic.
Everyday i went home about 9.
Aiyah, then got Grad Nite.
the very much anticapated event.

And hopefully, i can find the appropriate dress. =)

I've already crossed the line. But im ready for more. C'mon its time.

Oh, that bliss.

Falling for you. Busted.

:: moody, PMS prone?

2004-10-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

Fucked up, or born to lose the battle?

My life's been disorganized.
Everything seemed meesed up.

Yeaks, lets not talk about prelims results.
I have to admit, those inspirational talks @ Spore Discovery Centre were rather motivatiing.
Esp the Shackleton's Antartic Adventure.. *whoa*

I'm in a desperate need of a timetable

...and a grad nite dress. =

:: patience and endurance

2004-10-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

Be proactive. Ask what you want to know.

Some random pic update:

the most pathetic party i went to. Oops, i mean recent party. =) No mats, no radio, and birthday girl was 2 hours late!

heheh, went to the Mrs Singapore peagant. i <3 all these..

she's the one that pink evening dress. She stammered her way through the interview section, made her lose some brownie points. I still thought she's the pretty one among the other contestants. Wife, mother of a 3 year old son, body so fab!

a great view =) its nicer with me...heheh

heheh, very crappy la.

Afterall, just feel like updating =)

:: What was i thinking?!

2004-09-21T22:54:00.000+08:00

Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, its not the end.

Yes, the much anticipated moment- arrived! haha, im over with prelims. I just need those beauty sleeps. Cant spent another night just cracking my brain. And also, thank goodness mummy already clean up my room. Oh so tidy!

I recently watch Terminal. Hilarious beyond laughter. a Must-See! Tom Hanks is like the best actor in the world. Diego Luna,in the other hand, is the cutest man alive. hee...

Ready for the big time, ready for the small.
Whatever's coming to me, I'll be ready for it all.
Sometimes, it aint easy, sometimes, its not polite,
Someday I dont get it, somedays i get it right.

I'll just keep quiet. I dont wanna rant, i wont complaint. I was stupid... naive. if it is to be, let it be.

Im gonna work extra extra hard for the upcoming Os, cause my prelims are gonna be CHOW.

:: Shot right through

2004-09-19T21:39:00.001+08:00

You were just another friend, But when i got to know you, I lend my heart unbend.

Im already a big girl.
But still, i wont let this be a distraction at this point of time.

and yes, 24 hours countdown to liberation!
gonna clean up my room
"Bilik bersepah dgn buku mcm mad scientist, tapi tak pandai2..."

hang in there peeps!

:: Demoralized, is that right?

2004-09-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

I dont mind spending everyday, out on your corner in the pouring rain

Nice layout? Ashlee suddenly looked oh-so-blah. Im so obssesed with Dirty Dancing Havannah Nights. Sis said Javier was one of the actors in The Terminal. hah, must watch!

Math paper 1 HOPELESS. some of the girls even cried. But serious talking, its nothing like Catholic High! Sooo jauh, and i mean it.
I dont understand their intentions,that is to make us fail during prelims. Its rather demoralizing than improving+motivating.
Such craps.
Whats over is over, what is done cannot be undone.

Thought Paper 2, there's some "ray of light" ... History's SEQ was orite, but SBQ, was dogshit. ergh. And dont u even dare to say acounts. Yuck.

Yeah, so whats Haizad is ambitious?
Sometimes, ambitious is good. U haizad, oh-so-promising!
-drooling , head over heels- =p
he definitely deserve that "MR HANDSOME" title!
ok ok, for now Christopher Michael Lee got my vote

Im so stressed up this week, bags under eyes are appearing. =/

Prelims suck.
To the Max.

Shoo shoo go away.
Disturb me another dae =) adorable creature!

:: Dirty Dancing

2004-09-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

When you move you got me hypnotized, especially when i look into his eyes.

Im so in lurve with DirtyDancing's soundtrack. Since the movie is so helly the good. Recent watch la. =/ Busy u noe.
I never really knew that you could dance like this..
She make a man wanna speak spanish..
Como se llama? Bonita. Mi casa, su casa.

Javier is so hot hot hot!

Saw a gorgeous dress at Toa Payoh. Cant wait to shop.

Hell, i hate prelims.
after this craps, then i can think of another craps.
A perimeter line shud be drawn.

Sometimes you just need to practise some self-control.
Can O level just go away.

:: metamorphosis

2004-09-10T19:43:00.000+08:00

wish i was dreaming but it's real

I hate being scold by a teacher(who doesnt?)
Humiliation.

Haizad's back! I told you so. and yes, he's is still very good looking. =)

Humanities, slim chance. I love Switzerland though. Mr Thong heightened my self esteem for Math. Accounts? 50/50. Batik still haven finish. Craps sia. =/

Of all time to dwelt on it, why now? Lets focus, concentrate.

ok, i shud stop eating.

:: semangat berkoba-koba

2004-09-05T11:05:00.000+08:00

Says he wants you. says he need you.

Dont you sae anyting about Haizad.

What is over is over.
But really, he sang good really.except maybe the song la.

So, shut that holes! =p still got wildcard.

heez, got Open Hse.

And, as expected, sooo the helly boring.

We, me Lydia and Nat, reached there about noon. . . and loiter around.
and loiter...then went to the toilet to shi-shi.

Heez, we saw $5 coupon.
since we have no intentions of purchasing any coupons, we were so grateful of the unexpected rezeki.

yayness...we went round again, to see if there's any other way we can spend that coupons.

henna?

tattoo?

Band's balloon?

after much thoughts and consideration,
we took a pathetic pic of the 3 of us, in a Mickey Mouse polaroid, that cost 2 bucks.
But its nice.
and the rest, on a float. yum yum!

i somehow helped my juniors of sec 3f look after the stall, SOMEHOW.
heheh.

after that, we set off to Toa Payoh..

we intended to study, but was dangerously tempted by the wow-privacy-multimediaservices.

we give in, but kick off about 4.20,
Unfortunately, we did only 2 qns when they announced library is closing at 5.
What a blow.

So we went to Popular.

And im greatly inspired.
Semangat tgh berkoba-koba ni
I really want to do well. Im willing to splurge on tys-es to pass.

If i didnt do well, i dunno what to sae =|

Such an exciting dae. I love it.

its jealousy, its disturbing.
But im not jealous, im not disturbed.
Such adorable person u are.

:: tired

2004-09-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

I HATE SCHOOL
I HATE SCHOOL
I HATE SCHOOL
I HATE SCHOOL
I HATE SCHOOL
I HATE SCHOOL
I HATE SCHOOL

I'M JUST OH-SO-EXHAUSTED.

:: Teachers Day

2004-08-31T19:03:00.000+08:00

I'll be your cloud up in the sky,I'll be your shoulder when you cry...

Today we celebrated Teachers Dae.

How can i express the deepest definition of LAME...

HAHA, but its quite ok actually..

considering....

The day started with such a walk around SengKang, as we commemorate ACES day.
All CHILDREN Excercise Simultaneously. Wait a min, are we still children?

we 3 never fail to look good in camera =pppppp

such unfair treatment for the mademoiselle. Still, we look good under the sun!

Our class had this pathetic banana cake from Primadeli, and 2 champagne.aw, how romantic.

"yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmm-ssseeeeeeennnng!" =)

form with the chairmen. =)

when Cancerians go crazy.....

For my dearest Teachers...wanna thank ya...

Ms Serene Boo for being the pal_ly form teacher.Understanding all my craps. Mrs Shahul, for your "powerful" lectures. Mrs Angela Lee, for being my english babe. Mr Dave Thong, the MOST COMMITED teacher in the world!Simply love your hairdo. =p Mdm Chua, for your constant reprimands to read instructions. =) Mrs Delia Yong, for those "sha shake-it! shake-it" practical. Ms Ng U Lynn thanks for being a role model. Such a great inspiration u are. =) Ck Nora for your constant nags =p Ms Foong for your crazy comments and your non-stop complaints =p Mrs Sng thanks for being the humans babe. Mr Nazri for your irritating teasing!

and yes, i got class on Thursdae Night.
OH MY Mr Thong, you really really really deserve that Most Committed teacher award...

I'll miss Singapore Idol, AGAIN.
Only the results show. which is at 10.
At least something la.

My results are deteriotating.
got 9 for Science.

Pathetic or what???

why oh why? *sobbing away**

Completely demoralized. 'Nuff said.

and yeah,

jealousy kills the cat.

:: Singapore Idol

2004-08-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

Do you want me? Like i want you...or am i standing still?

Haizad Imram,
the name, so sweet, oh so serene.

SINGAPORE IDOL TOP 30 FINALIST. TEAM 2.

Its time when we're destined to meet.AGAIN.

ITS been soo long since i was so oh-head-over heels with this fella.
Yeah, he's IS CLEO's MOSt SUAVE Bachelor.

Finest indeed. =)

i still vividly remember...that very fateful day.

...when me and Nat, sneak out 2 days before out MT OLEVEL paper, to go meet him @ the Anna Sui Roadshow.

this is what i wrote:
"Haizad..
Oh so beautiful soul...
Its time for us to meet..
Its destined..
Fate brought us together..
The time when we'll stare eye to eye...
see face to face...
connnect heart to heart..."

Goodness, TOO MUSHY hor?

BUT FUCK IT, he wasnt there.

So maybe, this is it. The time, when i can really see, admire, mesmerize...*faints dreamily**

Gosh, so excited for next week.

Just hope Mr Thong wont conduct any lessons that night.

But if he decide to? =|

:: record breaker

2004-08-25T22:32:00.000+08:00

coz this love dont feel so right, u cant push a river, you cant make me fall, but you can make unreachable.

Record Breaking Moment finally ended. 48 hours of no computer, no internet. Wow, i wonder how i did that.

Im so freaking stressed up.

I hate school. I hate Chemistry. I despise English. I detest Accounts.

Bleagh.

I just got back home, from Night Study.
impressive yeh? Tho i dont find it quite effective but i did learn something. at least. =)
i have the most motivated friends =)

yeah, Grad night coming!! So excited! I was somehow in charge for those momentos, since Jason claimed the title for "Lousiest Chairman"
Still havent figure out what I'm gonna wear. Thats gonna be tough, we hardly have much choice.

ergh, i need a breather.

can i?

:: pieces of ashlee

2004-08-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

love me for me

Ashlee Simpson free gig!

"Cannot miss! Must-go-see!"
went with Aishah.

mind you, i studied first yea..yeah yeah..i noe, prelims, but reli i priortise this. And ONLY this.

haha, ashlee simpson showcase @ the skate park.

ASHLEE babe!

for the rain, we are even provided with free ponchos!

cutie Utt was the host.

What is a gig without bumping into some stars?
That's Carmilia, Nickelodean host..heheh. We got a bit star struck!

and is this guy just adorable or what?

Fell in love with one of her guitarist - BRAXTON! hot hot hot!

and ashlee..she just rocks..

she keep on rockin

and ME, being the luckiest mademoiselle alive... =)

hahz, such a lovely duo!

aahh!! ** Faints dreamily =p

was so embarrased to take a pic with her.
All her eurasian bimbo-tic friends, go "Oh camilia, u got fans!"
Afterall, she is the host of a tv channel for KIDS!~

but too bad, so sad..=(
It was kinda difficult to take pics with ashlee. The security was extremely tight. Bummer.

anyway, anyhow...

after that, mummy and daddy fetch us from Heeren. To have our dinner YUM YUM
With my cousins and all, aishah was a bit shy. =p
But just dragged her along.

nice dae yea pal?

ASHLEE SIMPSON ROX.

see ya guys around...Probably for quite a while.. =)

:: in a state of confusion

2004-08-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

Slow and steady win the race.

This year has been appalling. Just look at the number of distinctions in the school.

Pathetic.

im quite ok with my MT results. I've been there for my entire sec 4 year, i dont expect to go any higher, or to under-achieve either.

so.... Alhamdulilah.

still, im gonna re-take. Absolutely.

Went to Bee Choo's dad funeral yesterdae..Such things really make us weep. Hengy, Liwen, Liyi, still, managed to maintain their cool.

Imagine, ur parents, the 2 pillars of guidance and suddenly, one just collapse.

Would you be able to stand? =|

Been quite busy nowadays. But still, i managed to squeeze stuff here and there.Like today, I actually went out with farouk, and the couple salha and syazwan. big shocker there.

BUt it turned out quite orite actually..

Firstly, i went arcade with farouk, while the couple spent their time privately...
*notti..notti...* =p heheh..and i hate to admit, that i lost like 5 games in a row. We played the hockey thing, racing also.

Went to watch Ella Enchanted.
The film is absolutely hilarious with a captial H.
Thumbs up!

"...Don't go breaking my heart
I couldn't if I tried
Honey if I get restless
Baby you're not that kind..."

Those who already watched, u'lll understand. =)

We even went to take some pictures, for some, whatever you call it, memory sake.

Haha.

yea..continue to laugh.

Hahahahaha.

after that, went home sweet home.=)

good sunday everyone!

:: childish

2004-08-12T01:09:00.000+08:00

Dont want me? Fine, as if i want you.

Guys are jerks..

Selfish.

Foolish.

Self-centered.

Thoughtless.

"Many guys think that girls are complex creatures.
True.Sometimes,we love to hint,rather than say it out loud.

Yes=No
No=Yes
Maybe=I'll see "
-vivalicious

:: frightened

2004-08-08T19:26:00.000+08:00

see i dun, know why, i like you so much

feeling so uneasy.

Insecure.

just so scared.

English O Orals, just around the corner, im the 5th. My reading was bad. Hmph, sister said its so ironic to score in picture and conversation than to score in Reading.

I'll try harder. I'll maintain my speed.

I've been such a good girl today =)
I help Mom for breakfast, went to feed Nats cats, go tuition, help mom with her hair, and now im letting myself online. I'll do my hw later.

Promise!

MT O Levels results released this 11th. Jason told me so.
Seriously, i dun wan to find out.

i even dreamt, im one of the few that did badly.

mimpi hanya mainan tidur kan?

:: barbequed pepople!

2004-08-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

if you lose a moment, you might lose a lot.

Since we are having, what the teachers insist "the super-long- holiday".. I decided to break for a dae..c'mon, i need a breather.

Oh, we had the much-anticapated lunch feast of sec4f at seoul garden, tampines.

Oh shadub. its near yea..

Its infested with patriotic students. It was funny. Some group sang a birthday out so loud, so we joined in. Haha. When we sang birthday for Kim Yuen, then they join in -- "in return". And our patriotism got even deeper, we sang Home..in unison.

how cool is that?
the whole of Seoul Garden burst into laughter. ;)

arh, why dont i let the pictures do the talking yea?

the typical case of the Hougang-ers coming late? ;p
and that Bambang acting cool?
let me emphasize again, Acting CoOL

eating comrades!

The mission of making barbequed egg omelet.
they used lots lots lots of eggs!

its always crazy if Boon Kiat's around...

powerful four!

oh, as usual, the pretty and pretty ;D

Hahah, we watched the most LAMEST, and hard-to-get-you The Village.
Its was such a bore. Haha. I even browse my camera,listen to farouks mp3, update my phone, , chit chat. .. such a *yawn*

ask me what the story about?

yea..ask me!

orite orite, all i can recall theres some blind babe stealing away the guy her sister loves. And she was the one that killed the villian..which turned out to be the crazy dude in town

err...Something like that...

yea, i actually dont QUITE get it. hhmmph

anyway, anyhow...

Went Compass pt after that, meet up with Nat.I take the responsibility of taking care of her cats. for 4 days. I know, im very responsible. =)

So did Madamoiselle Martina enjoyed her day?
Frankly, not so.
One major reason is that the movie suck to the core.
The other, just felt so tired.
Remaining, i dunno...got things in mind.

By the way everyone,

HAPPY NATIONAL DAE!
remember, a progressive society we shall be!

:: fairytale do exist

2004-08-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

" i believe in myself, i know things are going to be okay"

Though typical, but its not so lame.

" I cant wait for him.Coz waiting for you is like waiting for a rain in this drought. Useless and dissapointing"

aiyah, so touching.

GO SEE!

:: taking control

2004-07-29T17:41:00.000+08:00

if you take a moment to think, you have a cause to thank

*screams!** arh, miss you damn blogger dot com!

well, schools been rough, Im obviously lack of sleep. I slept til 2 coz i got Physics test, Chemistry test, PRELIM ENGLISH ORal, History Mock exam -- all on the same dae! Talking about test galore, how interesting that can be.. *snorts* I took no consideration to ignore History. heheh. hey i got oral sia. Mrs Shahul was orite i guess. I fumbled in the Reading Aloud, too nervous i guess. my picture and conversation was okay... ;p

lets put studies aside. I can practically throw up.

FYI, my skinny galpal admitted to hospital..
yeah wads her name?

Yup, Lydia.
That petite SUPERMODEL, with legs shaped of my arms >> no pun intended
Something wrongs with her stomach. Poor her.Miss her. Gonna visit her soon..

Well, there's nothing much to say really. . . Oh yea, i got class outing next week. You know some good-luck-class-charm before we give our fullest attention on those textbooks and notes. yikes! we book a slot at Seoul Garden.

IS THAT UNITED OR WAD? :D

:: down depressed

2004-07-23T19:05:00.000+08:00

its fridae!

TGIF! yayness!!

Gonna do my art prep work.
Tho...im so drop dead tired this week... *phew its over..

Schools suck. As usual.
Im just been quiet these days..
im much more focused these days..on Physics especially..
i hate Chemistry...such a hassle man..

im feeling the overwhelming uneasiness thats spreading..
within me...

thanks nat, for your concern. Love u... im orite..

But what did i do....actually?

:: fuck u right back

2004-07-22T17:10:00.000+08:00

No man is worth your tears, and the one who is, wont make you cry.

Another dead-end street, another love gone wrong,
another shattered dream,
always the same old song..
I started thinking that you'd never come along,
I got all this love inside, that will show no words tonight,
I'm wishing you knew what I've been though to get to you.

:: Racial Harmony

2004-07-21T19:17:00.000+08:00

whats up with that?

1 people, 1 nation, 1 Singapore *pukes*

haha, since National Day is fast approaching, i can get a bit patriotic. Tho, sometimes, I CAN be a racist. hehes. ;p

Racial Harmony was kinda fun..
and guess what?

100% wore ethnic customes -- SEC 4F
Talking about unity.
I noe we are...
just look at the vice-chairman.*ehem ehem
hehehs.. ;p

i'l leave it to the pictures ya?
since pictures wont lie. heheheh

rain rain go away,
Martina wanna celebrate Racial Harmony Dae...

glam yeh?

thats Amir. isnt he sooo adorable??!? ;p

gangster la...

only the best artist can do their batik with baju kurong ya noe.....

united 4f yea baby

but there's always a saying ; Nothing last for ever.
Thats what happen to me. the ecstacy was short-lived. well, it was put on-hold somewhat.

i LOST MY WALLET.
I searched thru my bag, and it was not THERE.
i searched thru the canteen, corridors..
i even CRIED.

But, there's always some beautiful people in the world.
I went to General Office

"where's the Lost and Found?"
"what did you lost?"
"a wallet. Red wallet"
"how much is inside?"
"erm..i dunno about 20-30...there's IC..*sobs sobs"

he reaches down the drawer and ..

TA-DAAAA!!

my lovely dovey wallet in his hands!!

i even asked who return them coz i reli wanna give them a gift.
Gosh, such beautiful people!

oh, lovey dovey red wallet, i LOVE YOU MORE!!

HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY EVERYBODY!!

:: extraordinary

2004-07-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

get something extraordinary from the ordinary

School's like a chore. Being forced to...do something i hate...

An endless nightmare, where im so desperate to wake up. Whatever shit.
School lifehas been torturous. Tons of hw, lots of revision.. .

however...
i constantly remind myself
IF IT IS TO BE, IT IS UP TO ME.

post-sec options is still not yet decided. Hehes, im very indecisive. i always have second thots. That little voice in head is a never misled..
which reminds me...

I could have sworn i hate Bambang's guts. That guy, ergh.. damn ass you.

crazy fella.

hey ...
Do you believe the term "expect the unexpected"
Now, i do.
I SUCK(i mean it!) in POA!
and i managed to get a pass!
yayness!!
the reward for hard work! or shud i say luck?

The irony of the ironies- is that i personally enjoyed my arts filed trip to the Singapore Youth Festival Arts and Crafts ,at the Singapore's Convention Centre just now.

Only one word can describe what i felt; MESMERIZED.

Very the power man.
i was deeply inspired. Its sooo "fetch!"

we went home quite late. Sat thru the Gold Winners sharing programme. Its so beneficial. haha, reality check hit me hard. Have not done much for my prep work! *aahhh!

waiting for the bus was soooo freaking long. hais.. reached skool. went Banquet to have my dinner. mm...Yum!YUM!

Went home, quickly prayed then settled to do some physics.
Pretty amazing. It actually got in.

DREAM - DARE - DO

:: pressurized

2004-07-14T18:07:00.000+08:00

u never show me the light.

I dunno what im feeling. Its like im completely morphed into another person.
This so unlikely. Whatever it is, maybe im just too pressurized.

Well, hey heard of our prom night, or Graduation night as my school call it. It wasnt what i expect it to be.

you noe..

the guys will have to ask the girls out for dates. Wear those long and flattering prom dress from Daniel Yam. Walk down that long flight of stair with red carpet. Drinking punch for those champagne glass. Yeah, i wish.

My school. The liberty just isnt there.
Bummed.

it was funny how Willie flirt with Hengy the whole day just now. He even carried those oh-so-bulky-yet-smelly mounting boards. Talk to her.Its so adorable.. i even move to sit with theguys. i can see hengy -- so blushed!
"when you want to woo her?" heez. ;D

My whole class are psyched about Racial Harmony Day. APparently, as expected, most of the chinese girls will be borrwing mine. hahas.

its so...funny.
Hengy now noe more..hees..makes me kinda awkward around her.
Tho she admitted, he IS charming..
or we call it "very nice to look at"
BUT im so over that now.
so honey, drop it!

I dunno what Im feeling.that charisma, a higher calibre. He's just too goood for me.
he's not showing any signs either.
i've experienced this before, i don wan to experience it again.

:: birthday gerl

2004-07-10T23:36:00.001+08:00

not a girl, not yet a woman, sweet sixteen babe!!

Today i'm gonna ride away
and feel the sun throughout my hair
finally free to be who i wanna be
who that is i don't really care

Cause i've got friends who love me
Blue skies are above me
my black hair is everywhere

(sweet sixteen)
gonna spread my wings
(sweet sixteen)
it's my chance to shine
(sweet sixteen)
discovering
(sweet sixteen)
so much more to life

Im blessed with such wonderful people in my life.

You see, i thot its just a casual gathering, hanging and chilling around at Sentosa. Turned out, they somehow threw me a bash. I LURVE YOU GUYS. So much.

Well, first they sabo me in..Shitto.
Then with the cake.

Then we go for a swim.
You noe, there's a wooden platform at the middle of the beach.
everyone went there, so i insisted of going there also. Despite the fact of my unability to swim. So farouk brought me there.
luckily, i reached.

and the problem come when we wanted to return.
Bambang, who intially i thot was my hero, didnt noe how to swim also!so we made a huge fuss on him coming to the platform. We cheered and stuff..
Then went they returned to shore, the lifeguard scolded the whole entire group... like "do you know how deep is the water? if drowned how..." all that craps. I was so nervous coz i waas the only one left at that pathetic platform.So we had to pretend i noe how to swim.

Somehow we brainstorm about a min or two about how to get me out of there! Or should i say, misery.

So i got off the platform(holding the handle of course), with syafiqah hanging on, i pushed myself towards hafiz, then to farouk.
Then im "reachable"

Brought the mood down, but at least memorable hor?

Then we played volleyball wth some oh-so-hot beach hunk. But apparently he turned up to be an arrogant son of a bytch.
But hell, he was hot.

Haha, then play soccer. Oh and "as usual" i scored a goal. Haha, oh i should have noe that there most be some of my husband genes was somehow passed on to me. ;p

After all that, we went for a swim again..Arh...so nice. Then talk,joke,laugh..it was nice.

wanna see some pics?
im not such a miser..heheh

Birthday gerl waiting for the bash. hAHA

The guys bought me this cake...awww

"blow your candles, and make a wish"

getting the special treatment

since Syafiqah's and Farouk's bidae is next week, 17, 18 respectively, why not include them also? Told you so, im not that such of a miser.

right after this, they threw me in. -- that stunt was so not cool. hmmpphh

all that havoc and commotion

more pix, check out pixxies

My silent planners. Theyll be actors one day

I lurb them.

Went home after that though. But indeed, it ws the nicest birthday so far.the best.

indeed, i do have the bestest friends, right?? Im so blesssed with such beautiful friends in the world. I LOVVE YOU GUYS! MUAH!

:: normal

2004-07-09T21:53:00.000+08:00

the day after tomorrow

Guess what's gonna happened,the day after towmorrow?

Yesh, im a year older!

Gosh Im so excited!!!

Oh, such responisibilty.
Im sure i can handled that.

My pre-step to a NC 16 movie is that i sat for my MT O's Oral. Its was okay. The reading aloud, but the conversation, was quite,err... i felt like im talking to myself.

Hello!? Dont these examiners know how to just stretch those gifted lips and smile?? Hmmph...

By the way, Boon Kiat or BK, was so sweet. I received my first pressie. Hehe...
he baked me some cookies.
actually...
Well, he works at Delifrance.
So he baked those Delifrance's cookies.
Then he bought them from Delifrance.
Sweet hor?

And 2mrw, going Sentosa. AGain!!

yay~ness!

Just wanna go for a swim and tanning. Hihi, with my close buds.heehee, wanna pack now!!

but how infortunate i become, when mr thong announced that extra class will commence 2mrw!! hecks, gotta delay. hmm..nvm, study first then enjoy.

is that a common saying, or am i just oh-too-smart!?

:: my habits!

2004-07-08T19:52:00.000+08:00

a change of mind? More of the change of heart

Ok, i've come to my senses. I cannot live with all the necessities, ie my darling computer. I'll be so distracted everytime my sister type furiously when i was trying to sleep. I'll be peeping whats on the internet. Oh goodness, i just cant live without you! Muah muah muah!!love my lovely ComPaQ.

You guys heard the girl version of Eamon's Fuck it? Is that cool or what?
You know there is two sides to every story

School is such a torture. Tho the last mass lecture was great fun. Mr Arasu showed us some presentation. Educational, Fun, Not sleepy. Its been such a rainy day. It makes easy to sleep.ahh..Need some beauty sleeps.

my mt ORal is tommorw. Gotta prepare. I dont wanna screw up again.

Yesterday, Miss Boo became insane. Radeem threw a staple and accidentally hit her. She demanded who threw it at her. No one admitted. You know what she did?

1. Lock the doors.
2. Close all windows.
3. Switch off the fans.
4. Suffocate us.

Zheming was so adorable. He shouted with such stern voice, "who throw!!??" then suddenly he burst with laughter "i hot la!!!" Hahah.

Then after, Jun Wei stood up for all. Tho he didnt do it.for the sake of all of us who really need a breather!

Right after that, we asked Miss Boo her permission to use her room for self study. It was totally condusive. I can actually study History, and it got into my head. Oh, i love the chapter on Gorbacev. Im a much smarter child. Well, for that chapter only.

Next week will be test galore. I have one on Physics, Math, and Accounts. yuckS!

Please Note: My birthday is only 3 days away!! Bought my presents already?!?

:: shitty~ is dis how im treated?

2004-07-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

The simple Life

Mmm.. something new happened to me todae.

Something rather refreshing..
New..
a bit, out of my league..

heehee..should not torment you with anymore test of endurance.

somehow, i managed to skim thru the whole session of Maulidul Rasul, in my estate. Kinda fun actually. The same conversations were brought up
"Carik lah matair mcm gini.."
"hmm...kalau dpt mcm gini, babi terbang!!"

heez, yup, and too bad i missed The Simple Life. Todae's episode was kinda fun but..
"kau ingat paris hilton tu boleh tolong kau dah mati?":P

B.U.M.M.E.R.

Satisfied, had done all my hw for the weekend. And this explains the update yah? hihi!

Anyways, i was pretty much blog hopping, and to sae, i kinda reflect on self.
Now i know, how much of a useless moron ive been.

I havent been thinking about going to do in the future. What will happen if my result stink? Should i go Poly, JC or enrolled to the nie and trained to bcome an Art teacher. Haha, my devotion towards studying hasnt been totally out yet, i hope soon. :D

PS. do stop by this very-much-adoring site,and vote for my dearest Malem and Daling as Cat of the Month!

:: Reality bites!

2004-06-30T19:46:00.000+08:00

every individual has their worth

Peep-OS!

Its bit quite a while since i update yah? Been super busy with my school, since its the 2nd semester, the pressure is pretty much on us. Hmmm...

Have you ever heard the term "Lame"?

Or should i show you the very definition in my dictionary?

Lame is being FORCED to be school punctually at 7.20. -- not even if a second late
Lame is being FORCED to wear that stupid pathetic pass around your neCK.

Well, need an example?

one most prefect example -- The extraordinary LAMER, my school.

Hmm, dunno why they waste time on these rules?

anyways...
Started to plan out my study plan...

which i foresee i will not follow

but still, i need to.

Everydae from now onwards, gonna do a hour of math..

Like what they say,Practice Makes Perfect.

Gonna BANNED myself from any "sources of harm" ,hihi,like for example the computer.
Gonna be discipline now.
Though i know it can be torturous.

I really need help in my Humanities. and also accounts.and chemistry.
My top 3 most DETeSTED subjects.

I have this thing with Social Studies + History.

We just cant clique, i guess?

Haha, everytime i hear HUmanities,
i just CRINGE.

You noe why, social studies is shortened to SS?

Cause its DOUBLE SUCKY!

:: Shop till you drop

2004-06-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

When you smile I can feel, All my passion unfolding

48 hours to go. I haven even tie my laces.

What am i going to do?
Screw up again?

Can't Can't Can't

This is my last shot...

Lets' work hard k? F-O-C-U-S..

Needless to say, todae was such an exciting dae. Tiring too, from the fact that im suffering from some awful blisters. Went shopping with my sisters and Mom.

Everyone was making such a big deal about Mango's furious sale. Pretty good actually. Bought a short skirt and the oh that infamous Mango addict top. But i like it, esp the green one. Oh so fresh.

Mommy todae was in an obvious good mood. I FINALLY (i REally mean it, i've been waiting for soo long) got a FCUK tee! and its the one i want!
Hees, it amazes me that what i want, i got.

Oh, Im soo blessed.

Laughing Out Loud.

except for my grades. BLEAGH.

FYI, my beloved Raul turn 27 tmrw. hehehe...

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you..
Happy birthdae Mr Super Gorgeous

Muacks,
your darling wife.

heeheehee

:: sun and its burnts

2004-06-25T20:20:00.000+08:00

Fall, with you i fall so fast

Sand
Beach
Cute Hunks

Yup, went SEntosa. Or should i call, the last-ever-outing im gonna have with my frens.

Fun baby..im on the way...

"grovvy chics" oh c'mon, dont deny it.. On the way to UnderwaterWorld

this pic is gonna be send to Cambridge u noe..

lets get tan baby!

a bit here, more there.

shiny!

heehee, fun dae, im ready to go home now.

We stop by Kovan and had our dinner.

We chat about our prelims and O's..
reality check really hit me HARD..
Not to mention, i did like hell for my Malay O's.

Onli 2 months away to Prelim?
Its my final lap, i have to sprint!

:: Bumps and bruises

2004-06-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

I never regret having you by my side

Bumps..
Left to Right..
Turn..
Twist..
DIZZY...

Haha, 360 of fun.
Yup right, went Escape today. Was great fun, at least the first hour.. :)

Breakfast at McDonalds!

On the way. Me with Hengy

Reached! the 2 sweeties and the sweetest.Haha ;p

in line!

me and BK got too dizzy.. B.U.M.M.E.R

Fun dae for all!

~VIVA 4F~

:: why must it rain on me?

2004-06-21T19:05:00.000+08:00

you spirit pulls me thru, like nothing else can do

Have you ever feel...

Like everything is against you?

Every door you turned to just slammed shut right infornt of your face...
Humiliation and dissapointmeent filled your heavy heart.

Life is so unfair? Isnt it?
Huh? Whadda hell. What does this staement means,
The government side cannot lose.

So why did i waste the time in the first place?

Urgh, sometimes you are good, but just not given the opportunity. Its ok ESPANA, you still rock.

To me you're always IN...in my heart

You're a guiding light that would never fade, there's nto a thing in life that i would ever trade, for the love you give i wont let go, i hope you always noe..

VIVA ESPANA ...

:: Daddy's Girl

2004-06-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

Not a problem of mine, but a a problem i find

Hihi...

Happy Father's Day!!

Wohoo..todae was tiring. When for debate meeting, like at 9...until 1.. so sianz..i prepared my speech.Im so gonna stammer like hell.Hopes things turn out well.

But imagine, the room so silent, so quiet, and you can only hear your voice, fighting to save your group's dignity? W.H.A.T.E.V.E.R

Wnet home, surprise to see all my cousins here. just casual visiting i guess. Kinda fun. Crazee... Watched Gila gila pengantin Remaje..
"eh pompuan tu mcm siti nurhaliza eh... "

Really got no mood to blabber here.. Just waiting for time to go by.. Keep those fingers crossed, Spain can win! erm..or at least a draw!

:: you just got lucky baby

2004-06-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

its only your shadow, never yourself, only your shadow, nobody else..

Heyya... it was such a slacked-at-home weekend. bORED.Watched the MTV Movie Awards, and darn, lindsay lohan was hot. Goodness she's just 2 years older than me, she got all those fortune..fame...Hmm..im stuck here, for the Os.I thot PariS Hilton was gorgeous too. Love her eyes.Jake Gyllenhaal was hot too.. Not to mention my ashton kutcher. hihi, so happy Kill Bill won. :) fantastico.

to my misery section..I've got 5 pages of Social Studies, 3 English functional writing and 1 composition..terribly more,there's 9 pages of chemistry waiting for me on my desk.Gotta finish them by this week! If not i never get to go Sentosa Oh dis S.U.C.K..all im waiting for is a dae under the scorching sun.. With soft penetrable sandy sand..Feel the waves come splashing against you toes.. Oh. Heaven..cant wait!*

Got debate meeting 2rmw. Not sure weather its at Carine hse or CP. The funny thing is, she suggested that we shud go to someone hse with computer, all of guys claimed we got no computer. We picked carines since she suggested it. Then she sae: "Cannot , my hse got people " Haha..dats cute.

Haikz, my euro 2004.. C'mon Raul, i want more!! Never give away. Really hope they won. Or draw. cant accept the fact if they lose. So what portugal have more supporters? Im a your fan, all the way from singapore. Better do me proud!! never leave me here, humiliated by my frens :yeah, as if they hear me.

::sigh

2004-06-16T22:54:00.001+08:00

I cannot hold back the truth nomore, i let you wait too long..Although its hard and scares me so, a life w/o you scares me more..

Hey hey..seem to update2, still couldnt get things right? No template is nice..hMM..don care.

**Going Sentosa next Fridae! Cant wait. Going for a sun tan. Actually wanna go Underwaterworld, to take some pics of the sea dragon for my art coursework.. stinky. Its expensive too.

Been such a rough week. Wake up early in the frigging morning go to school.AArgh was so exhausted. And finish about 5. I dunno, it was very tiring..

2mrw..after math, a whole long dae of ART. yikes..i enjoy art, but long hours can make you irritated too right??gonna feel like a prisoner locked in a chamber..

hear me out!
i Really DO need a break!

Sometimes, you just gotta work right? To make things right.
Im sure i can make it, its just a matter of choice.

:: exhausted

2004-06-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

Why are we..stranger when..our love so strong..

New layout..mmm..cant seem to find a nicer one... ..Anyways, had tiring dae 2sae.. 8am-5pm, Monday to Fridae, goodness, as tho im working...Didnt even get paid :(

* Reminder..2mrw got Greece VS Russie. YOU WATCH AR, GEEKS!

:: Football and Arts --mixed

2004-06-13T23:18:00.000+08:00

I swallowed my pride and stepped through your side..

HAh!! Spain won. They played well, as a whole..Cant mess with me now..Haha!Portugese lost to greece..Haigh, spain will face greece dis wed...Shucks..A match i shall call
Geek Greeks VS Sassy Spanish:)

Believe it or not, its 2.30 in the morning!

Went to Esplanade for the Arts Festival. GOODNess, i had such a great time..especially during the "gig".. The band was awesome..Very the awesome.. It was the coolest.. *hee*

*Not to mention the violinist was so cute..I heard his name was Ismaharis. My sisters and i went gaga over him..Talented, and cute too. Haha..and too bad, we had to quickly snap a picture,coz the security was extremely tight. As if their Blink 182 or something..Bleargh..but i went to their site, and there he is. BAAM! :)

He played this whatever-you-call-it-instrument and the violin..oh, im impressed!
what more can a girl ask for? ;p

:: Its been quite a while..since i set myself free...

2004-06-11T19:06:00.000+08:00

Will Raul rise for Spain? ..or roll over?

Its been quite a while since i wrote a decent post. Well, it have been movie crazy week. Watched Harry Potter 3with Nat, Basirah and Lydia. Flawed, but worthy. Hmm.. And we set home at 7.30..Lydia was rushing *mouth zipped*

Yest got this debate meeting. CAN u believe im actualli in it? Haha.. Gonna go to the Parliament Hse on the 21st. Hm..we're THE opposition. We opposed that Singapore SHOULD NOT have a casino. Believe it or not, im the first speaker.for sure i'll be stammering like hell.. Hmm...after tt meeting, Farouk, Hafiz and i go watch movie.I actualli lurve The Day After tomorrow..strongly recommended by aishah..tho it didnt quite make sense..i find the effect was good..Err..sounded like my father.. I lurve the part they were in that ship, and the wolves came.. A ah.. reminds me of Malem* :)

* and did i mention tt Sam was hot?!?

Hehehes... 1 more day to Euro 2004. Raul will be competing against:
:: GROUP A ::
Portugal
Greece
Russia
*Spain*

fIRST match my LOVEly RAUL will be up against Russia. I dont want to sound confident or anything...but..
"Spain's all-time leading scorer is ready to show his stuff" :)

MY SPANISH BOYS
I book No. 7 oredi ar!!

:: pop quiz

2004-06-10T18:14:00.000+08:00

You questioned..did i care? You can ask anyone..I even said, you were my great one...

Name? *Martina

Fave color? *pink & red

Fave food? *spaghetti

Fave drink? *orange juice

Fave snack? *chocolates

Fave musician(s)? *errmm

Fave song? *currently: Eamon : Fuck it(i dont want you back)

Fave sport? *soccer?...

Fave subject? *art

Coke or Pepsi? *Pepsi

Red meat or white meat? *red

Pizza or Donuts? *pizza

Laptop or Desktop? *desktop

Movies or Computers? *computers

Shakespeare or Harry Potter? *harry potter

Cold Weather or Hot Weather? *hot weather

Contacts or Glasses? *glasses

Are u a huggy person? *uh-huh

Are you a negative or positive thinker? *negative..most of the time.hihi..

Do u like cartoons? *yup yup

R u planning on learning something soon? *yea

If you look out of the closest window 2 u, wad would u want to see? *the next block

ever been on stage? *yup

Most embarassing fact? *sealed in the X file

What's ur dream vehicle? *a pink vespa

Childhood hero? *spice girls..

Ever watched a concert? *yup

Phone or Online? *online

Believe in Santa? *like duh' of cos no

Would u rather be Rich or Smart? *both?

Allergic to anything? *moisturizing lotion. A must!

Fave day of the week? *wednesday :)

Do u have any enemies? *i dont. but do they?

Do u have boyfriend/girlfriend? *no

Having a crush on someone? *hee*

Do u believe in love in 1st sight? *yea...

Any friends outside your origin country? *yup yup yup

Ur greatest fear? *lightning n thunder

Believe in Adam & Eve? *yea

The last thing u cried over? *cinta bollywood

How old do u wanna be when u get married? *25 and under.

10 important things inside your backpack/schoolbag/purse/pouch:
- Handfone
- lotion
- Wallet
- lip gloss
- pens
- a pair of earrings
- my house key
- $$
- discman
- digicams

9 things that you really want:
- better brains
- More Shoes
- More clothes
- Freedom
- gorgeous tan long legs
- A good O Level cert
- i wan designer brand stuff. Preferably Gucci ..heheh..
- My frens
- Beauty sleeps

8 of your favourite foods:
- wanton noodle
- Pizza
- Banquet Fish and Chip
- cHocolate!
- KFC, thigh and wing original :)
- mom's spaghetti
- Fries
- Kick-kaa0po

7 of your closest friends (not in order):
- Aishah
- Nat
- Sasa
- Syaf
- Siaw Jin
- Farouk
- My sisters

6 of your fave movies:
- Love Actually
- 50 first Dates
- Mean Girls
- How to lose a guy in 10 days
- Titanic
- Kill bill 1

5 things in your room :
- My Bed
- My closet
- MY computer
- huge Raul posters on the ceiling
- Air-con

4 things you ate/drank today:
- heart candy
- epok2
- fried noodle
- the most delicious iced milo

3 things you couldn't live without:
- My family
- Frens
- my Beautiful Gorgeous CATS...Malem & Daling

2 things you usually read:
- Sandra Brown's lovet dovey novels
- Magazines…

1 person you can't forget:
- er..i'll update back when im old..say 65?

:: bloody damn...

2004-06-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

Calling out your name..Your face is everywhere..I'm reaching out to you..To find that you're not there

Boy loves girl. Girl loves boy. Boy think the Girl dont like him. The Girl think the boy dont like her. Boy go to India to work as a assistant producer. The female producer fall in love with Boy as he he help her with her emotional problem. Boy sympathised her and married her. Boy returned home. The Girl waited for hIM. Girl cant believe he was married....

Hais... CINTA BOLLYWOOD ROX! :)
Cant wait for next episode!!

:: if i can just breathe . . .

2004-06-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

Every time I think of you,
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue..

Oh this world is so..unpredictable..yah?

Went my aunts hse yesterdae..Was quite fun.. Even receive an advanced birthday pressie.. which was a white Topshop tank and a lite blue tee..

oH whicH Reminds me, a gentle reminder to all of u...(ehem!)

Tide time wait for no man.. Time is of the essence.. With a blink of an eye, 11 july is fast approaching..and if still, none of you noe, or maybe you just have been living in the one of the other planets in the solar system..its the dae that... (drumroll pls...)

i TURN S I X T E E E N :)

Ok ok, sorry la..But hey, sweet sixteen-- it IS a big deal.

"sweet sixteen..gonna spread my wings, sweet sixteen..its my time to shine..sweet sixteen..discovering..sweet sixteen..so much more to life... " -Hilary Duff

Todae got SS Mass Lecture, and no surprise now, im always late..hihi..And how miserable that we're the only class that have to stay back till 5!! coz of the art thingy.

It was fun though..we ate more than we draw. ;p

:: shoP til you DroP!

2004-06-05T22:58:00.000+08:00

Through the days I had I think of what I've been... And all the one who knew me better... Anyone ever will again...

Hey hey.. Went shopping with Aishah todae.. Great fun!!

Exceptionally LURVE Zara's season, psychedelic tops,REAL NICE.

see that mountain of clothes we tried??

hahas...Bought 3 Zara tops todae, and 1 flip flops..Stupendous.
Haha, it was fun we spent about an hour in Zara's fitting room,
laughing the crap tt we both had put on weight... Hahas..great fun.

TOPSHOP suck dis season..REalli..very the..ermm... "ahlien-ish" ..yikes..

Went Pacific Plaza. Saw this really hot guy at Gallery. He was staring, i stared back. I looked away. Then i (being cheeky) look back, and he was staring back. Got off the escalator. Talking about -- taking my breath away. hehehe..

Lurve todae..very nice eh?

great fun ya gal pal?;p

:: new

2004-06-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

Hey hey guys...new layout..new blog site... Hihi, thanks to Shahrir...Thanks dude!!